Ask a Dark Sider.

Sometimes I wonder how my life would have turned out if I wasn't a social outcast during my formative years. It's almost a cliche, really. Unfit, 'weird' and smart. I was picked out as being 'different' eventually, once I reached the age where the school cliques start to form. I tried for awhile, but realised what values they had that I didn't. I saw things I hated in them, traits that I wanted no part of.

So I stopped trying to be one of "them". Stopped giving a damn about attempting to fit in or having a normal experience and decided to be who I am and have my own experience. I figured bollocks to the standard ideal of 'how you should live' given to us by society and the media.

I've embraced the aberration, especially so in recent years. The shyness and anxiety were replaced by a lack of caring for the opinions of others and a passion for trying to find my own Way.

I had a "period of time", and I don't use it as an excuse. It's an origin. It's where I came from; a point in time where I experienced certain things that pointed me in a certain direction and led me to choices. I've looked at both paths at one point or another and when I looked at the light path, and normality, I realised that I'd have to reject parts of me that I love, and to hell with that.

My 'period of time', which we should find a fancy term for, only (somewhat further down the track), galvanised my resolve and led me to the dark side of things, and I like what I found.


Who needs an excuse to join a path? If it suits you, damn well walk it. The consequences are always there, but we'll burn that bridge when we get to it.

I don't see anyone posting in this thread using their experiences or the reason they may have decided to explore the Dark path and then leave it, as a "crutch". I read a post from someone who has been here for quite some time try and explain why he took up that path, in an attempt to, perhaps understand what it was that was eating him up from the inside. Perhaps I am wrong, maby I am just attempting to identify (something I seldom ever do) with someone's past experiences that sound similar to my own. I've been down that road, I know damn well I don't use it as a crutch, and I'm pretty sure the member who's words were being picked at like scabs doesn't either. Just because an individual started walking that specific path in attempts to better understand themselves, then leaves that path sometime later in life, doesn't necessarily translate to them using it as a "crutch". People need to take a good look in the mirror before being so quick to pass judgement on others here.

You know, I agree with you in a way Michael. When I was a kid, I was an outcast. And, I walked a pretty dark path in my formative teen years.

But, I was dragged out of it. And, I don't wanna go back.

in my experience, most intellectuals have 'walked a dark path' due to their experiences. as asimov said, at least here in the states, intelectualism is frowned on, discouraged. 'why dont you get your nose out of that book and go play some football?' or something like that.

its how we react to these events, how we respond, that in future begins us down the path we tread.

and it seems we have a lot of intellectuals here. tho few walk a dark path.

I don't see anyone posting in this thread using their experiences or the reason they may have decided to explore the Dark path and then leave it, as a "crutch". I read a post from someone who has been here for quite some time try and explain why he took up that path, in an attempt to, perhaps understand what it was that was eating him up from the inside. Perhaps I am wrong, maby I am just attempting to identify (something I seldom ever do) with someone's past experiences that sound similar to my own. I've been down that road, I know damn well I don't use it as a crutch, and I'm pretty sure the member who's words were being picked at like scabs doesn't either. Just because an individual started walking that specific path in attempts to better understand themselves, then leaves that path sometime later in life, doesn't necessarily translate to them using it as a "crutch". People need to take a good look in the mirror before being so quick to pass judgement on others here.

Your being a tad overly dramatic, and its a bit silly , and presumptious, to be offended for someone else. Your reaction is out of proportion.

Oh, took a look in the mirror, and yes, im still that awesome.

By the way, I didnt say it the path that was used as a crutch

Connor Lidell wrote: But, I was dragged out of it. And, I don't wanna go back.

Dragged? By whom, and for what purpose?

im going with 'forces unknown' and 'for liberal beatings until morale improves'.

Alluvius wrote:

Connor Lidell wrote: But, I was dragged out of it. And, I don't wanna go back.

Dragged? By whom, and for what purpose?

By my training master and life mentor Jackie. She's one who truly believes light is a better path. And, I was drowning in my own darkness, but not ruling over it... so I wasn't really a Sith (who has control and works on a level with darkness), but a scared, 14 year old kid who was drowning in suffering and didn't even know it. She found me and told me there was a better path for me. She showed me Jedi ways and I took hold of them. But, I would never have done it unless she had hounded me every step of the way.

Now I love where I am, and I wouldn't go back.

Reason, ruling alone, is a force confining; and passion, unattended, is a flame that burns to its own destruction. ~~~~~ Kahlil Gibran

"There is a beast in man that needs to be exercised, not exorcised."
-Anton Szandor LaVey.

The trouble with quotations, fictional or otherwise, is that there's one to suit both sides of a discussion. Nevertheless, yours wasn't bad, John.