Rants far and wide

Just week and a half ago I went into a dentist I'd never been to before. They were very kind and eager to accommodate me which was a huge relief as I my previous dentist was booked until February. On my first visit they identified several problems which were causing the pain that made me seek out my dentist. I ended up spending over spending four hours getting work done, including having one of my molars removed. The work needed to be done and there was a real risk that if I put off the work any longer the molar which they extracted could 1) become brittle enough to shatter 2) cause a gum infection 3) begin to rot. That wasn't even the bad news. The bad news was that it meant putting off leaving for Chicago by a week.

I used that time waiting for my appointment to recover, get off to a good start at school, and rest after all the stress my job had put on me. I also used it to make arrangements for my job in Chicago. I called the dentist's office to make sure that once the work was done, it was done and that I wouldn't need to return. They assured me that I would be all set.This afternoon I went in to the dentist for a second appointment following up that major work I had done in the first appointment. I was under the impression this would be the final visit before I could leave for Chicago without needing to immediately find and consult a dentist in Chicago.

I didn't find out until I was sitting in the chair about to have my teeth grounded to a stump (for crowns) that I would need to have another appointment for the permanent bridge installed. I cried right then and there, fortunately I was wearing these big ugly sunglasses to keep the bright lights out of my eyes (they hid that I was crying and I wiped away the tears before the dentist returned). I wanted to strangle the office worker who assured me over the phone that I would not need another follow-up (she took the time to double-check with the dentist). When I got back from the appointment my anesthetic was wearing off and I was furious (pain and anger are much like gasoline and fire).

Anyway, it looks as though I may be waiting yet another week. I'll be honest, the mistake that was made could have happened to anyone (even me), but it was a BIG mistake because of what was riding on the answer to my question. I still cry if I think about it too much.

January can go stick it thanks.

Today has been a sad day.

So you guys know that Nikki Minaj song "star ships" or something like that, where it says "star ships were meant to fly"? This drives me insane. The term Star ship implies that it goes from star to star, which is something we can't do as a species yet, but if we could, star ships still wouldn't fly. They're in space, and you don't fly in space. You simply float in whatever direction you want, unless you're in orbit in which case you're always falling, just at a faster rate sideways than down.

Too. damn. stressed. Housing stuff. Friends. Relationship. Job. Other job. Money. Other-other job. No car. Health issues up the wazoo. Too tired. Insomnia. Anger. Bad mood. Depression & anxiety. Too many things to do. Too many things to get done. Not enough time to do what I actually need to do. Anger-at-self for not getting to some things sooner. Long litany of pain. Arghhhh.

:evil: :evil: :evil:



Emotion, yet Peace.

BTW, how do you manage to insert videos from youtube? I've tried all I could think of.

The days where I feel I am literally beating my head against a brick wall.

When you think that you'll go back and find something only to find it's been abandoned and/or overrun with spam bots.

Guess I better think of something else :dry:

YES, (and thank you) January CAN go stick it. Please wake me up when its over....