What are you going to be when you grow up?

we need to wonder whether they are really our own dreams or not.

Not quite the same, but on a similar note - Much of what I have achieved is by "accident"

People look at me and say "you have done this and this, and you have this and that"

Maybe I am ungrateful for what I have, but I generally look at those things and think "Huh, well, I never wanted them, they just sort of happened while I was thinking about getting a dimsim"

In that, the higher you shoot, or raise the bar, the further you will go even if you do not reach what you first intended.

Shoot too high, and it'll land at the point of origin.

Shoot too high, and it'll land at the point of origin.

Maybe, but its something just to hear the gun go off.

Khaos wrote: Passion builds in complexity, if you are willing to give it its due time, and dedication.

Life build complexity...

Both the mental kind, where we are tied up, and the physical kind...

I joined TOTJO 7 years ago, I did nothing but work and be unsatisfied with my life... I was facing a midlife crisis, and unhappy with my 'lot in life'... Needed a 'happiness tuneup', lol...

Khaos wrote: Some things, only come with age, and not just your physical age, but time in regarding your passion and practice.

Something hard for [strike]some[/strike] most to understand... It takes the 'time' to understand it, to really understand it... When you havent the time, it sounds like some kinda bullshit made up by elders to make themselves look superior to the juniors, lol...

I thought I knew quite a bit when I was younger...

I know even more now... And yet, realize how little I actually knew then... lol...

Funny how that works...

Khaos wrote:

Shoot too high, and it'll land at the point of origin.

Maybe, but its something just to hear the gun go off.

That's a concept I've tried to impart to my music students for years, and you've summed it up so succinctly. People, well most people I've encountered, tend to think in terms of success and failure. They tried and failed, or never tried out of fear of failure, but never seem to understand that when your life comes to a close, you won't regret the failures so much as having never even tried to succeed or fail. Its the journey that shapes us, not the destination.

Chairwoman of the broadcasting compagnie i work for , i have to impress council and board , i am nervous and even if i dont make it , i know i will one day. I have good ideas and plans for Omroep Centraal.

Foster Mother to one or more children , i have had foster children before , 4 to be exact, i am ready for another one , i want to make a difference

Oh yeah and i want to be a Jedi Knight , the reason for that is simple , i want to serve and grow, its a step in the right direction. A path that i have been walking for a long time , i just did not know it yet.

When I grow up, I want to be an astrobiologist.

And when that happens, I want to spend half my time researching and half my time consulting for sci-fi movies/TV/games.

I have never really had a drive to BE anything when I grow up. That is part of the reason I joined the military. I got tired of college and wanted to buy me more time to figure it out. That never really happened. Some would call me a military "lifer", but I never had that "lifer" mindset. I was just there to figure it out.

My motivation has been more i want to experience everything! I want to live life to its fullest. Enjoy everything I can and try new things all the time. SO that is what I have done and do.

I always tell people when they ask em my age that I am 12. That seems to be a magical age to me. A time in our lives when there are no responsibilities, all opportunities, no drama, just endless possibilities. So I have stayed 12, and have been 12 a long time. I do not want to be the old guy sitting on my rocking chair saying "I wish I tried that", I want to be the old guy saying, " I can't believe I did that!"

I do not want to be the old guy sitting on my rocking chair saying "I wish I tried that", I want to be the old guy saying, " I can't believe I did that!"

What do they say?

"There are Old Pilots and there are Bold Pilots, but there are no Old Bold Pilots"


You are right though, no one likes a boring yarn.


That said, there are enough people in my world up to mischief. Some one has to sit on the sidelines, ready with a nice cup of tea and bit of jam on toast.

Honestly, I really do not know. And I think I never will.
I mean, you can't know for sure what will make you feel good in 10 or 20 years, I agree with Karn on this one, a "carpe diem" of some sort is good.
To answer the question, I *am* what I want to be and I do what makes me happy:helping people, studying, becoming a physicist, doing science research. If after 30 years of academic life or research I am not happy anymore, I understand that the world does not need me as a physicist or I just would like to breed horses or selling fried chicken door to door I will surely do that.

Life build complexity...

Most definitely.

When I speak in regards to passions though, they are narrow viewed interests.

Even in the most narrow of views, things only build in complexity.

If one is willing to give things their due time.

This is why I have never felt the need to be "both light and dark" or "Embrace the whole" of anything. Or even neither.

First, I think its a crock, but even if I didnt, just within my 17 years within the Dark, in my studies, I have found neither a shore or a bottom to it.

Its grown in complexity.

More to explore all the time.