Kellahin

I have been away for a while. But I am going to start the process of completing the IP for TotJO again.

Part of the insight I have gained during this time away is regarding the nature of the force.. I used to think of it more in intellectual terms or by emotions.. after sitting meditation for sometime I realize that there is a deeper part to it that may transcend discriptive thought. Observing the observed thoughts almost from a third person perspective within myself, I found an emptiness of thought where I am finally at peace. It takes practice but I heard a Zen teacher compare it to brushing one's teeth but for the mind and that it should be done twice a day. Though I lack consistency I feel like this must be true. Days where I practice sitting meditation are better than days I do not. I still need to get deeper into the Campbell reflections.. But I feel like some higher power is with me in the peace I feel.

Spent the evening glowstringing and learning basic poi. Still focusing on self development and sobriety. been 7 months now. Experimenting with different colors. Been reading a lot of different things. Reading communion by Whitley Strieber. I had a chance to meet him in a group presentation at the beach last summer. I am learning this is my only life and I need to be healthy and present. I feel like I've suffered enough. Finally have some peace. I know there is lot of homework to do but I am so grateful to be here and want to continue to grow.

Praying for everyone and a better future

been AFK for a while. Strange journey