Better Days
Dec 28, 2016
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What a week...
What a year.....
Just when I figured this year couldn't get any worse and more stressful,
I litterally feel as if the floor has bottomed out from underneath me,
One by one, since last December it feels as if every idol and icon that helped shaped my childhood, was snatched away from me, from the world...
Add all the uncertainty that we are about to walk Into, and a friends death just a few short weeks ago, It has been by far the worst year of my life...
It hurts,
And it really sucks...
It's ok to be angry...
It's perfectly acceptable to mourne...
But one day, one day this too shall pass...
In the meantime, please join me in kissing 2016 goodbye....
On a piece of plain white paper, I will draw a dove (plain bird) wings touching the sides.
Afterwards, ill cut it out. On that bird I will write my feelings towards the current and past events of 2016. Mine will read as follows.
"2016, you didn't hold back,
Obsticle after obsticle,
I'm still here, and breathing...
Life after life, you snatched them without warning,
One by one, I watched them pass away,
I'll mourn, And I will heal,
I will face the uncertainty of the next year,
With courage, compassion, and humility.
For I am a Jedi, and am one with the Force...."
I will also on the other side write the names of everyone who's passed in the last year, including a few events that have irked me.
On New Years Eve I plan on setting the Dove on fire in a container (pots work perfect) after reciting the above and save the ashes for the next morning.
As soon as the sun rises, ill take these ashes and throw them to the wind.
I've done this multiple times this year, it served to help heal old wounds. The burning of the dove is also an excellent way to wave goodbye to a stressful year, and relieve a little stress at the same time.
It's perfectly natural to be angry, to mourn. We may be Jedi, but we are also human contrary to popular opinion. To not find some productive outlet for all the negativity we experience throughout life, is to keep it bottled inside.
If Carrie Fisher has taught us anything, it's that life doesnt hold any punches.
So mourn, be angry...
But heal, and get on with living Jedi...
R.I.P Carrie Fisher
She'll forever be royalty to us all...
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