Rants far and wide

Just because someone spends their time with the sick and afflicted does not mean they themselves are sick and afflicted.

rugadd wrote: Just because someone spends their time with the sick and afflicted does not mean they themselves are sick and afflicted.

I know were not supposed to comment on other threads but quoting this for the following rant as I had this today as well:

If I had a dollar for everytime in 911 I've had to pick someone up because they were with someone else who was sick and now they think they are getting sick....this server would be paid for a very long time...

If a pipe and pump that pushes the sewage out of my home fails, do not tell me that you will come by and fix it, if you didn't rig it up like a 4 year old it wouldn't fail. Hire a damn professional, or get out of the way pay for the supplies and let me fix it. I already lost most of my wardrobe; now because of this the fact that I stayed up all night fixing your crappy plumbing clearing a sewage pump and then rebuilding the inlet and outlet system after buying the supplies myself. I smell like poo and now that it is fixed you are gosh dang right you are hiring a cleaning crew to clean it. Do not, I repeat do not, try to raise the rent because I swear to I will literally take the piping and electrical work I did with me and go find a nicer house.....Sorry glad I got that out.....

There are so many words I would like to say, so much frustration I would like to get rid off, so many people I'd wish I never met.

A couple of months ago I dropped the Jedi title completely, and I haven't associated myself with it since.

This came as a result of several experiences, mostly with people with a high status within the general Jedi community.

A Jedi master defending physical child abuse, a Jedi knight arguing that homosexuals and transsexuals are mentally ill openly within their order, an entire order silencing a select few in order to avoid unwanted exposure and my favorite; Jedi using their adherence as moral levitation to the high ground and dabbling in subjective nonsense.

If you believe the Jedi community is just a good community with compassionate, respectful altruists that accept change rather than do their outmost to halt it, then you are gravely mistaken.

The Jedi community needs to step off its high horse that it has so firmly entrenched itself upon, take a good look at what it has become and how to fix it

-- This post was just a rant and in no way meant to target TOTJO but the general Jedi community. I will not reply to any replies to this post here --

Posting here cause I'm not interested in further derailing a thread to prove my point while feeding my ego...

I don't give a damn how many times you apologize, publicly or privately. You misrepresent the facts more than anyone else here, and I'm fed up to my eyeballs with how people can spit out a cheap apology and all is forgiven, and we're back to square one. Stop derailing threads and falsifying the facts with your personal bias & cherry picking while engaging in denialism. There is ABSOLUTELY NO ACCOUNTABILITY HERE, and THAT, is EXACTLY why those said individuals stepped down and left.

Can we please cease and desist with the bs?

I am so, so, SO exhausted. I was feeling super unhappy with how my work makes me feel (anxious, miserable) and decided to take another stab at looking for graduate programs to apply to. But, there's a huge hitch that I recently started to really give more consideration. I have serious health concerns which require monthly medication. California has a solid healthcare system which pays for that medication and gets it delivered to me. But how the hell will I manage to get my medication (free of gaps) if I end up wanting to go to college in another State? It's hypothetically possible that I'll be able to somehow make it work, but I don't even know where to begin. Having to add this HUGE extra task onto my search for an educational institution is really FUCKING FRUSTRATING.

So I look for CA universities. There aren't that many that have the degree I want, and most of those require that I take the GRE. Do you have any idea how stupid the GRE is, how mind-numbingly awful it is that such total bullshit is required? Standardized tests are a horrible way to go. It's costly, requires preparation that I don't have the energy to deal with, and is irksome on a moral level.

So, I'm left looking at my options and feeling like total shit. Not rich enough, smart enough, or lucky enough to make everything work. I don't have the energy to deal with all of this stuff but I seriously want to continue my studies. I wa so certain that after I got my Bachelors degree I would be mostly free of stupid, arbitrary hurdles to getting an education. Isn't it fucking bad enough that I'll probably have to take out horrendous loans that I have no likelihood of ever paying back? Why does everything have to be so totally fucked? And it only keeps getting more fucked. Who knows if I'll even have healthcare at all next year, if the GOP get their way.

I really want to study, learn, grow, and do cool things in the world. But I don't know how much more energy I have to struggle.

Wondering if I should feel bad about not feeling bad about anything I do.

Why can't I quit her? 9 months and counting and all I want is to see her smile.

Arisaig wrote: Why can't I quit her? 9 months and counting and all I want is to see her smile.

And I sorta hate how depression makes me post these things when they'll pass 20 mins later.

I know I'm not the best worker, I'm not your model NCO. I've got more than my fair share of problems and it does affect my work. But where do you get the right to tell the people you loaned me to that I'm a "fucking retard"?!

I'd trusted you. You're pretty high in my chain of command. Thank you for your understanding in my time of need. Thank you for sending me away to Comm. You just solidified why I felt I needed to go to the Commander of our Squadron to get the help I need. You had made me feel bad for doing it. Now I don't care.

I'm glad I've been putting in my best efforts here. Unfortunatly not up to par with my past self but still my best. Comm has at least seen who I am. Even if you can't.

How can you expect my people to continue running these shifts and not get wore down? How about we staff up the other shifts like you promised a month ago? If we fail it isn't because of my team, it is because of the inability of this company to provide the support and tools to get the job done. A leader cannot expect more than they themselves are willing to give and we have failed then in this regard. I don't care if you take it out on me, but leave my people alone.

So because one person can't do the job they signed up to do, you have to take the entire department and make them do an extra hour of work each shift because that one person can't spend 3 hours a month doing the job they are supposed to be doing correctly. So we dramatically increase our workload of everyone else instead of working to better train/educate/work with the one person who is supposed to be handling the task....*sigh*

Me : Is not brainwashing illegal??


Christopher Restemayer, Infantry Squad Leader at U.S. Army (1998-present)

If it weren’t a bunch of voodoo pseudo-psychological fantasy bullshit, then it probably would be illegal.

And she laughed and laughed as she not so silently left the building....

Today i had to wake up to emails, saying there is a threat and added security and officers are here. Great, nothing like my morning meditation being steeling myself to come to work and comfort students because some a hole cant act normal.

You were the ones who said I had to go, if I was still living here I had to go. So I got all excited about going. And then guys decided to get a divorce, but that didn't seem like it was going to change things. We were still gonna get together on that day and everything was going to be normal. Except now, one of you lives out of state and the other one won't say a word to me any more. But I still have this date that I got all excited for, and it just so happens to be that someone's birthday party has been scheduled for that exact same date.

Well f**k his birthday party. There's still two months to go. People can still reschedule their travel plans. Reschedule the thing! And I know that that makes me a selfish b****h but I don't care. I worked my ass off for that date. My thing CAN'T be rescheduled. His party can!

But you won't do that. So here I am with this date still sitting there, and it's all been confirmed.... Except now none of you can come. Not the two of you getting divorced or anyone else. Instead I get to know that I can go to this thing... by myself. . . Or just not. Even though you were the ones who said I had to. We will literally never have another chance to do my thing. But what's the point, cause you won't even be there.

Just like you weren't there last time either...

But whatever. . .

Here I am, enjoying an audiobook on a long walk (nice and warm at 45f)... and my earbuds die.

Fantastic.

So did we not just have this huge conversation about standards? Does all that go out the window again, and we're okay with quantity over quality?

Oh, we did but it doesn't matter because we're okay with bare minimums rather than excellence? We're okay with putting forward all this time, training, and energy so we can have yet another ghost?

Must've missed that memo.

I would greatly appreciate if people stop assuming what I mean. I say what I mean and I mean what I say, k thank you bye.

and he opens his mouth and prove himself the fool.