The Grateful Thread
This is probably one of the weirdest forum posts I've made.
Since about 10 o'clock this morning, I've been in a pretty bizarre space. It has been one of those days where "absolutely nothing in Life is good, EVERY BLOODY THING needs to be different, I don't have the time to do anything, I'm nothing, I'm a f*cking idiot who pretends to have some measure of cleverness, I don't have anyone to talk to and I can't even frakkin' cook ! My Life is just miserable and no one gives a shit ... !"
One of those kinds of days, you know ...
Well, as it were :
- It's the first day of my winter holiday (I have a week off) ... how the hell is that not having time for stuff ?
- I finished a delightful and helpful book today and began another ...
- I go to the gym, come home to a nice wok-ful of rice & chicken with ginger that I made and is quite tasty ...
- Tomorrow morning, I'm going to have coffee with a friend of mine who I don't get to see often, but we have a pretty human and whole-hearted conversation each time we can ...
- Saturday, I spent the afternoon and into the early evening with other friends who I don't get to see often but each time we do it is pretty human and whole-hearted too ... And that was after spending the morning interviewing with two journalists from France Info ...
Now, like I said, it was since about 10 o'clock this morning that I got on that silly My Life Sucks roundabout ; I realised that today I've lounged around at home and seen no one. Essentially, no one ruined my day but me.
The reason why I'm putting this here, in the Grateful Thread, is because when I realised that ... I just had one of the biggest, tears streaming down my cheeks LAUGHS that I've had yet so far this year ... How ridiculous is that ? To essentially spend all day in a snit because things are essentially going just fine ...
I am so grateful that I am not the only one who has those days..
And grateful that my friends understand that crazy gotta laugh and flap your wings moments...Days and gently remind me
today i formally accepted a new job in another city. close enough to commute for the time being. i am grateful for the opportunity and hope i dont screw it up.
My sister checked herself into rehab, its been about a month now with her daughter in my custody. The last mont has been filled with court dates and officials entering my home, putting me under a magnifying glass to determine if I am worthy and not a detriment to her well being. Its been hell...
I realized the other day my niece literally has no comprehension of the magnitude Star Wars and Star Trek has had on modern culture. I finally have the chance I have always wanted, to raise her right. She's been surrounded by drug addicts her whole life, and has a year or so of her child hood left. I am grateful to have a bit of that time, in attempts (vain as they may be) to undo what has been done...
"You must live in the present, launch yourself on every wave, find your eternity in each moment." ~ Henry David Thoreau
"I am a forest, and a night of dark trees: but he who is not afraid of my darkness, will find banks full of roses under my cypresses."
"You must be ready to burn yourself in your own flame; how could you rise anew if you have not first become ashes?” ~ Friedrich Nietzsche
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I am grateful for today or perhaps more to the point I am grateful that, thanks to the temple, I finally get that all I have is now. The peace that brings me is perhaps the first I have ever know and for that I am not able to language my appreciation.
Yesterday, one of the people I serve choked on his lunch. Eventually, his heart stopped. I had the privilege of maintaining a perimeter while our nursing staff successfully performed CPR, got his heart going again, and suctioned the sandwich from his lungs.
Scary stuff, but inspiring.
Got a lot of grateful to get off my chest today....
I'm grateful to my parents and grandparents, who do more for me than they should, and more than I deserve, who taught me to work hard but be generous.
I'm grateful to my fiance, who taught me say 'f*** it' and be myself.
I'm grateful to my year ten history teacher, who taught me that one voice can change the world.
I'm grateful for my record player... even though half the disks have been played to death, there's something more soulful in the music from a record than from any mp3 or cd.
I am grateful for the sermons that many times say just what you need and grateful for the people who put in some much to the Temple. Not all of it seen.
Today I am grateful for all of my animals: Dog, 3 cats, parakeet and the bunny.
Having to stop taking in rescue rats and degu because of my allergy was a killer, but the silly personalities of my remaining animals makes my day every day.