No reason for it
Ennui can usually be fixed by a good book, or a new lover, or some other excitement and purpose in life.
Depression is more like a coating of ice on your spine, immobilising and horrific, withering you from the inside.
I'm no mental health professional (well, not one that any credible institution has recognised anyway ) but in my mind there is some difference between natural Grief or Anxiety or Rejection that we all get from time to time and the ongoing suffering I sort of imagine when someone says "depression" (apparently the fancy-book word for it is Dysthymia. Good for them)
I feel like I've used this clip before, but I like it.
rugadd wrote: Does anyone here go through that?
So many times, I can't count them.
Currently I'm on major depression and anxiety medication. It helps tremendously, but not all the time. I have much to be thankful for. Content with my life. Yet every now and then I feel that desperation. As if something is missing. I've learned to curb it naturally with the help of a saying I read a long time ago:
The search is what anyone would undertake if he were not sunk in the everydaness of his own life. To become aware of the possibility of the search is to be onto something. Not to be onto something is to be in despair. —Walker Percy
I have to be onto something to stay happy. Not just doing something, but have an idea in my mind that drives me, something to look forward to, a purpose, a reason. Sometimes all it takes is a little inspiration, or just an interesting concept. Something to make me think, to make everything go from ordinary to extraordinary.
This life that you can see is just a shallow layer. There is SO much more to it than just being happy and content, having everything you need. And if you can convince yourself of that, there is no more "everydayness". Every day suddenly becomes the One and Only day. Every day becomes ALL DAYS.
"The Force is with me
and I am one with the Force;
and I fear nothing,
for all is as the Force wills it."
—Mantra of the Disciples of the Whills