Who is God to you?

I have been struggling in my church of the last three years roughly. Been thinking about leaving completely but, a part of me is Holding to Jesus. I am growing more fearful about leaving and focusing fully on jediism. But, every church service, every prayer night or Bible study night or youth group night (Very active in my church) if I were to walk away I feel like I would hurt something permanently within me and my peers. I know you can be a Jedi and be a Christian but, my church is very conservative...Jesus only. They would more than likely ask me leave.

What has made you think about leaving, specifically?

What do you think would be hurt in you or your peers if you left?

Are you staying simply out of fear? That's why alot of people still go to church, that perhaps its a sin or something...

I left because it didn't feel right, it never did. As soon as I was given the choice, that was that, and I have never regretted that decision...

Sounds as if you need to weigh the positives verses the negatives. Do you feel good while at church? Listen to your gut, and do not allow fear to influence your decision. A huge part of being a Jedi is having the courage to make difficult decisions...

I think it's the fear of leaving there's nothing wrong with my church necessarily but I know that they would never support my second one. If my pastor were to look at some of the things that are posted on here and really study it and he would not make a harsh quick judgment but I guarantee you he would consider this ungodly and Magic hand of the devil. Me and my wife have had arguments about Temple of the Jedi Order before. But I'm in church I pray I participate I don't just sit on the pier and not respond there is just something pulling on me not wanting to leave but at the same time I get too tired the lack of respect the consideration they gay and lesbian community, a church can be just flat hateful that anything that's anti Bible for Anti christ. I'm just not that way anymore I used to be like that you're very hateful Christian it is either repent and give your life to Christ or burn 2011 I came to this Temple and I feel I awoke. I love Jesus I love my pastor I love my church and they love me but I know they would never accept me being a Jedi I guarantee you they probably laugh me to scorn.

Who is god to me? My essence. The words you choose to define that are up to you but the words are limiting and clinging to the words too tightly is a deception and leads to unhappiness. Look into and discover your essence and you'll find your god, no words are then necessary. Be happy.

I have the luxury of being a well known name in the Jedi Community, so it affords me the ability to be able to explain the intricacies of the how the Jedi Path works in regards to our multi-faith acceptance without my pastor thinking I just don't get it. If they went to ask someone at any of the orders or big name Jedi Facebook groups what the Jedi Community is about (on the Macro-Scale), they would most likely get pointed in a number of directions, one of which is mine (which is what I mean by "luxury").

My pastor, however, accepted from the get-go that it would take a great deal of time for him to figure all of this out, and instead decided to rely on what he feels the Holy Spirit is telling him about me. He's not worried about my Jedi side. I say this to explain that if your pastor is focused on your other church rather than how you live your life in accordance with God's Word, then he's probably not a pastor sanctified by God.

That said, here's the real question: Have you dug into the Bible to discover God? Jedi are taught to meditate, as it happens the Bible also encourages us to meditate on God's Word. Through that, you can find whether or not you actually agree with Christianity. I recommend starting with the really harsh points in Christianity- meditating on the things you pointed out you hate about your church. Their hatred towards LGBT, find verses (not just the one verse, read the entire collection of verses that lead up to and follow those verses, for example: Read all of the story on Sodom and Gomorrah starting with God telling Abraham He was about to go review them, not the snippets) that relate to the concept, and verses that talk about using wisdom to communicate with people about their sins, and about love, etc.

From there, if you still decide Christianity is the way for you, pray that God lead you to a church that agrees with what you've learned.

I'm not in a church because of my pastor. I'm in a church because the church provides me an opportunity to develop a relationship with God, that I don't really have at home with a spastic kid.