I've already posted it in my journal, so, sorry for the double post but I didn't notice there was a dedicated topic :
Last week, I met Kohadre on the chat of TotJO and we talked about totem animals.
I told him that an internet site told me that mine was the bear. He was kind not to laugh at me and explained to me that one have to find it and it's not given (especially by an internet site).
He told me that the way to find it is to go meditating in a forest, see yourself sitting on a log into a clearing and wait for it to come to you.
So I did.
I went to an ancient sacred Celt forest, I sat and started to picture myself sitting on my log in a clearing. There was running water near me, so I also pictured a waterfall to integrate the noise of the water in my vision. I started to wait for it to come, and a bear came ! But it just acted like I was not there. It came into the clearing, sat for a while and leaved. shortly thereafter, a beaver came and leaved too. then my vision focused to the pond at the foot of the waterfall, and I saw the was a trout in there.
Unfortunately, there was people around, and the noise they made just broke my concentration and my vision.
I think, the bear was there to tell me that my old idea was wrong. It was a goodbye. After that, I'm not sure, but I think the beaver was here because these days, I'm chopping wood for the winter, so, it's in my mind because it's a tiring job. And I can't explain the trout. Maybe that's the one, but the end of my vision didn't allowed me to explore this way.
I will try again.
To be continued...
