Update

At the moment i have so many things going on all right now that i feel like i am going to throw up from the stress. The more i think about it the worse i feel. I want to cry and scream. MAN!

For those who may not know here is what is happening. I am going to be getting Married next monday, with any luck. My birthday is on the same day. My grandmother died the day before my birthday a few years ago but right now is the only time we really have before i move to Arizona. Some of you don't know that part yet. On May 6th i will be leaving California, my distaste for this state is the only real thing that is keeping me from being to upset about it. The main reason for me moving is because my fiancee can't find work out here so i am going to do the same thing my sister has done. I am going to move to Arizona and find a job out there. Then save enough money for an apartment. The financial state of Arizona is much better then here in California.

We are running into snags though. We have all the food we need for the wedding being brought as we are having a potluck type reception. But, my fiancee has an expired ID and no license. So we are going to go down and get him a new one but the hall of records is saying that he needs a current license with a picture. I don't know what to do.

I know that from time to time we all get a little lost and i know that once i am arizona all of this will be behind me but until then i don't know. I feel like i am trapped in a little box and it is only getting smaller and smaller. I guess that is all for now.

April, the world is a hard place. I wish I could sugar coat it and say it will all be ok. But I don't know that. The Force has blessed me with many things, visions of the future is not among them.

You however are a strong person, and the Force is with you. There will not be an obstacle that you cannot clear. I know the negative thoughts are winning out, but keep to it. The world is full of people who have nothing one day, and everything the next.

Just like in our favorite movie (Star Wars, of course), when times are darkest, the light has a funny way of showing us a path to victory.

MTFBWY!!!



Also, are you doing anything special to the vows? I want to add something to our vows, but a baptist preacher doesn't want to do that. He thinks I am 'silly'. Ideas?

Well, we are furtunate to be getting sort of nondenominational person, he mostly just has the lisence and is going to marry us. Nothing special. We have thought about putting our own vows in but havne't decided for sure yet. For our guy is just said if we want anything added then just to let him know and he will add it. As for the 'silly' thing. This is your wedding and he should bend to you, not the other way around.

Well, we have the marriage license and everything. We were worried we may have had to wait a week to actually get the paper but it came threw. Apparently you have up to 3 year of having your ID expired before it is considered invalid to the Hall of Records, and let me tell you, that was a HUGE relief. I have the dress, shoes, and in a bit i am going to be going to a friends for make-up and hair. Almost everyone is bringing food and some are bringing gifts. One person canceled but that was no big deal. I have already decided to make a toast to my grandmother at the reception, so yeah. My dad hasn't bought the plane ticket yet but i know he will sooner then later. he is usually very responsible. Everytime i go to pack i realize that i have an attatchment to this dump. I am human and comfort sometimes becomes a self built barrier. This move will tear it all down. But it will be good. I was wondering, does anyone around here live in Arizona? There aren't many that live near me out here and i would love to meet up with other Jedi out there

well- i'll be your neibor in utah!

sounds like things are getting better.
remember the less you worry the more you trust in the force, the better things go.

i know it doesn't help alot to hear, but it is true. venting can make you feel better- and besides we all have big ears and tear absorbing shoulders.

Okay, today is my third day out here and i am lonely but i will get over that. no job yet but already had 2 interviews with target! I am still filling out applications and with any luck we should be able to get our own place within a couple of months. We found these apartments that are under 500 for a studio and they rent month by month so we can get our renters credit up. I still don't know how often i will be able to get online. My aunt is very Christian and doesn't even understand Buddhism. My uncle Richard would probably bust up laughing although he was once scientologist (my opinion isn't great of them as many of you already know). My uncle John would probably be kinda kind hearted and joke about it. So this is another reason why i can't get on here all the time. They are doing me a HUGE favor by letting me stay with them and i don't want to push their religious boundries at all. I am sure many of you can understand. The weather is a bit different out here though, mostly just dryer, maybe a bit hotter but not terribly. Anyway, i had better get going.

May The Force Be With You all

BIG *HUGS*

I know we are all wishing you the best and the courtesy you are showing those helping you is just what a Jedi should do. Thanks a million for the update. It keeps your friends from worrying and let's your Bishop know s/he best be handling all the business of The Pagan Rite or asking for help from TPTB.

There is usually an alternative to the photo ID problem. If others with ID's are willing to swear to the identity of someone and the someone has a Social Security card and a certified birth certificate - y'all might be able to get around this.

Arizona? Is this the problem state?:S

MTFBWY,

John

I HAVE A JOB!!!!! this means that within the next month-month and a half my husband will be joining me out here!!!! I miss him so much the day before yesterday i hit my low but i am beyond that now and am feeling much better. It rained today, lol. I am going to be working at ROSS, not my ideal job but it is better then nothing right now. Thank you for the compliment Br. This week has literally felt like a whole month, i mean it isn't really a culture shock but definately a huge change it just sort of feels wierd. I have been having more prophetic dreams latley which is pretty cool, i just wish that i they would show me some lotto numbers or something