The Block

I have my wall, my temple i suppose in the context your speaking of. The reminder of hat and whom I am through the physical objects I choose to keep visible for me an the few that are locked away.

I have spent time honing skills for which I have hopes to never need. My gun sits idle in a safe, its age, almost 60yrs old now, but a reliable machine (Colt 1911 Vietnam issue .45), but one designed only for death. When I go to shoot or train someone else this weighs heavy on my soul that I am showing another how to use this tool for this purpose, (context of use aside). As I have grown naturally and through time I have seen that I want to be at peace. So then I have become pacifist, I am not even sure I would defend myself by bullet or blade anymore. The innocence or life of others having much more value to me now. So, now in my own mind these external tools remind me of the peace I wish to keep, yet, I own and train in methods of killing and cannot help but ask why?

This is what I realized from the sum of all these. My only real tool is my body, as I get older,(I a not that old) but I see the changes the weaknesses that are beginning to show. Like an aging building I can see where I neglected or where my actions have caused it damage. Besides all this the vessel and tool I have is to use this body to do and speak of what I see as right,peacefully, If I must be reminded that is justified, by my wall of Jedi-ism if you will.

I was not always this way, hence the gravitation towards the machines of death, and many years spent fighting others, the world and myself. Ironically, I spent some time last night vomiting up 3 of my teeth. Most my teeth are fake now products of the past......these were also fake but in time medical devices fail, we just don't want them lodged in our throats : ). I digress, this is not the first time I have vomited up teeth but this is the first time it wasn't caused by anger, aggression or warring with others. To me the very fact that this happened though painful, and quite a reminder of the past I see that as an improvement step. To ease the violence I choose to participate in for self serving reasons is a practice in Jedi, though it started before I arrived here. To continue this is one way to continue to use the tool and gift I have been granted. This is just an example to get that I can only base what I a as a Jedi on how I choose to use this physical form to make others world better. I say this because i can see the good in my world, yes, sometimes it's not fun, I get sad, lonely, aggravated ect., but to be aware of the things I am in the moment and to share my reaction with any who will listen is indeed my Jediism.

So, I will carry in my hand the person of whom I am in hopes of sharing the road that got me here to help otherwise. Yet, I will leave others on the wall so that lest I forget that I too have traveled up and down the road to get here. Yes, I enjoy wearing the temples symbol on my coat (pin) as it reminds me of this place when I from here in search of applications of the lessons I have learned here both IP and conversational. Thank you Carlos for this weeks thought I had already been thinking along the same line for myself so excuse my diatribe. Also, this morning brought back many memories that though I regret are ever meant to fade.

Recently I spoke with my little brother , wife's younger . I asked him a simple question , do you start your day or do you just Kinna jump into it ? My little brothers smart and it , this question stemmed a slew of thought . How in charge are we really ? Where does the condition actually kick in ? The automatic .. When does that in reality kick in and the answer seems to be the same, the moment we don't , it does. Strange thing is now that you see it ... Now that it's been told to you , you will for ever know . In my own life I have taken active attention to a few many things now , I can actually say I think for my self more ... Way more than I did before.
The ability to think for yourself , NOT to go automatic as often as we do can yield a few different results, try it start out the day on your terms. Organize it a bit and insert ... The time you will need to do things . I we all... If we just thought or took a few moments on our terms , how different the world would be hu? How different mine is and how different ours can be ... On our own terms!

Carlos.Martinez3 wrote: Recently I spoke with my little brother , wife's younger . I asked him a simple question , do you start your day or do you just Kinna jump into it ? My little brothers smart and it , this question stemmed a slew of thought . How in charge are we really ? Where does the condition actually kick in ? The automatic .. When does that in reality kick in and the answer seems to be the same, the moment we don't , it does. Strange thing is now that you see it ... Now that it's been told to you , you will for ever know . In my own life I have taken active attention to a few many things now , I can actually say I think for my self more ... Way more than I did before.
The ability to think for yourself , NOT to go automatic as often as we do can yield a few different results, try it start out the day on your terms. Organize it a bit and insert ... The time you will need to do things . I we all... If we just thought or took a few moments on our terms , how different the world would be hu? How different mine is and how different ours can be ... On our own terms!

I believe the second the auto-pilot takes over, life eludes you. Not paying attention to the moment makes you miss the moment. As life is short for all of us, spending half of it in auto-pilot and another third asleep should never be an option

Carlos.Martinez3 wrote: Recently I spoke with my little brother , wife's younger . I asked him a simple question , do you start your day or do you just Kinna jump into it ? My little brothers smart and it , this question stemmed a slew of thought . How in charge are we really ? Where does the condition actually kick in ? The automatic .. When does that in reality kick in and the answer seems to be the same, the moment we don't , it does. Strange thing is now that you see it ... Now that it's been told to you , you will for ever know . In my own life I have taken active attention to a few many things now , I can actually say I think for my self more ... Way more than I did before.
The ability to think for yourself , NOT to go automatic as often as we do can yield a few different results, try it start out the day on your terms. Organize it a bit and insert ... The time you will need to do things . I we all... If we just thought or took a few moments on our terms , how different the world would be hu? How different mine is and how different ours can be ... On our own terms!

It can be alarming to some, if not many, to hear, read or even come to the realization that the ego has been primarily in the drivers seat for most if not all of their lives. And even after one begins the process of awakening, it can be disheartening when we find out again that that awareness we may call "control" is temporary. And it continues...

Given enough discipline and even meditation, there will come a time when we allow our egos to fool us once again into believing we have finally achieved a state where the ego has finally ceased attempting to place it's hands on the steering wheel of life, and thus placing us in the passenger seat. This of course itself is misleading to a point as the ego is not really a "thing" per say, but a series of processes that are left over from our primitive ancestry.

When does it stop? The whole process of attempting to stop it all together is ultimately what ensures it's continuation on a more conscious level, lol. Truth is, we need it, it is imperative for growth. One of the hardest lessons for me in life has been "let go or be dragged." Otherwise it ends up permeating every facet of my life, including my art. This has, Imo, been a VITAL part of my growth as a Jedi, as the ego held full reign during my many years as a Sith.

Breathe, Observe, Let go or be Dragged. Today is all that matters...

Zenchi wrote:

Carlos.Martinez3 wrote: Recently I spoke with my little brother , wife's younger . I asked him a simple question , do you start your day or do you just Kinna jump into it ? My little brothers smart and it , this question stemmed a slew of thought . How in charge are we really ? Where does the condition actually kick in ? The automatic .. When does that in reality kick in and the answer seems to be the same, the moment we don't , it does. Strange thing is now that you see it ... Now that it's been told to you , you will for ever know . In my own life I have taken active attention to a few many things now , I can actually say I think for my self more ... Way more than I did before.
The ability to think for yourself , NOT to go automatic as often as we do can yield a few different results, try it start out the day on your terms. Organize it a bit and insert ... The time you will need to do things . I we all... If we just thought or took a few moments on our terms , how different the world would be hu? How different mine is and how different ours can be ... On our own terms!

It can be alarming to some, if not many, to hear, read or even come to the realization that the ego has been primarily in the drivers seat for most if not all of their lives. And even after one begins the process of awakening, it can be disheartening when we find out again that that awareness we may call "control" is temporary. And it continues...

Given enough discipline and even meditation, there will come a time when we allow our egos to fool us once again into believing we have finally achieved a state where the ego has finally ceased attempting to place it's hands on the steering wheel of life, and thus placing us in the passenger seat. This of course itself is misleading to a point as the ego is not really a "thing" per say, but a series of processes that are left over from our primitive ancestry.

When does it stop? The whole process of attempting to stop it all together is ultimately what ensures it's continuation on a more conscious level, lol. Truth is, we need it, it is imperative for growth. One of the hardest lessons for me in life has been "let go or be dragged." Otherwise it ends up permeating every facet of my life, including my art. This has, Imo, been a VITAL part of my growth as a Jedi, as the ego held full reign during my many years as a Sith.

Breathe, Observe, Let go or be Dragged. Today is all that matters...

Thank I for being a part of my personal Jedi ism Z. That is defiantly a valid way of thought . The ability to Cognitivly Reframe ourself s is not the easiest task and even some who say they have still need time . It's a hard gig. So many difrent views possible ! To me all are valid. All . There is nothing I could every say that can make your path less than true. To me , for you if it is it is. The ability to say some... See this way , is wise. Every focus is difrent every person an individual . Every path MUST be difrent. I love it! I love to see how we all are different yet we all meditate , stop , pray , take time ... What ever u wanna call it . I love to see the colors and the song of life! Thank u !

The beautiful people ! The beautiful people ! !!!
Now that's in my head !