It will seem like I am saying a lot of things to some, and to others....it may seem as if I am writing of nothing at all. Either way is fine with me, it's my blog, and as far as I know....not a post. I don't even know if anyone else can read this, it doesn't really matter if anyone else can, it's how I feel.

   I fell like I am the Forgotten Jedi. I'v even joked around with Asta about forming my own temple and calling it The Temple of The Forgotten Jedi. We've dubbed each other "perpetual apprentices". She is a Knight, and a friend, but I know she is trying to make me feel better, and I respect her greatly for that. I do feel like I have been forgotten. I had two people offer to be my master a couple months ago, both of which I turned down becuase I was advised against it. Now I have a Master, and have had one for awhile. The problem, is that I've been around since January, and still nothing. I have been completely ignored at what I guess is considered my "home site." Some have tried to involve me lately, but it seems fake to me. I respect them all, I do, but what about me? It feels that I have gotten zero respect. All I wanted was to learn. I was asked what my goals were, and I gave them as follows:

To become a Knight, someday a Master, possibly serve on a Council one day, and to become an ordained minister.

I think these are relatively good goals, and yet.....no one can seem to help me on this. I am still an apprentice. No one will give me an answer on becoming ordained, other than they won't do it right now. I do not understand why certain things have to be difficult. I'm not talking about the teachings, or the way of a Jedi. I am talking about the logistics people create for themselves sometimes. I've been patient. I am a Jedi. I just wonder when the rest of the Jedi world will let me be what I am destined to be.

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