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  • Birthdate: 18 Dec 1987


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    • What gives you strength? (Last post by OB1Shinobi)
    • this is probably going to be a long post, but, while i do not know which of these things are more or less appropriate to yourparticular situation, everything that i am relating here is a result of my own personal need for coping mechanisms and tools which are functional across a broad spectrum of difficult situations the very first thing that i have to do, the thing really that all the rest is dependent upon, is that i have to affirm my own value to myself, within myself this is basically a choice of just deciding that i have inherent value as a living being who wants to contribute something positive to the world in fact even without the desire to contribute, nothing more is needed than the fact that i exist to make me worthy pf existing and thriving for my own sake, just like everything else has every right to exists and to thrive for its own sake the desire to contribute is not even necessary really, as even a tape worm bas got the right to fight for its own betterment my worth is not conditional - nearly any condition can be lost - if i say "i have value because i am a good person" then all it takes is for me to be convinced that i am NOT so good and now my value is gone and when we're down itis easy to see the worst of everything so i say this is a CHOICE and a DECISION and that it is not conditional or dependent on any standard to be met there are situations that can rip any earned or conditional sense of value right out of a person - all it takes is the right presure - and in those situations all we have is that choice, so i say that its best to go ahead and make it right away every single thing is a call to either grow and develop as a person and a Jedi, or a time when we need to exercise the fortitude that has already been developed sometimes knowing that the crappiness of the current situation will eventually pass and that i will have been made stronger for it can help a lot of times actually the reminder that i am not done growing as a person and that there is a future and that i will participate with that future in a meaningful way, can mean a lot also i remember that in the grand scheme of human suffering - when i acknowledge the scale of suffering that has been endured by people utterly powerless to avoid that suffering, nothing of what i have been through is truly unedurable here i am thinking of bronze bulls and plagues and ovens and lynchings and on and on its sometimes a small consolation, but sometimes a very great sense of strength, to acknowledge that others have definitely been through worse a lighter side to this basic understanding is to recognise what a crybaby i can be but this is not in a mean spirited way where i beat myself up and add yet more negativity to myself, but rather in a teasing and genuinely happy "laugh at how silly we all are sometimes" way because we are all in the same boat really - no matter how great any of our egos want to trick us into thinking we are, i guarantee that every single person who ever reads these words has been a big fat crybaby, a fumbling nincompoop, and an akward dorkus, at some time in life, AND PROBABLY WILL BE AGAIN really -we're all a bunch of clowns and we take our circuses very seriously, and its FUNNY for me it relieves the pressure to laugh at my own absurdity - this is useful when i am making things worse than they have to be by stressing out and getting worked up in any number of ways that dont help the situation but exacerbate my own misery - basicay when im being a baby lol service i can always find a way to bring something positive to someone in some way even if it is trivial - it makes a difference every time, and the thought of being of use and of bettering other peoples lives even in small ways is maybe the difference between success and suicide the acceptance that one is worthless and life is hopeless is only possible if we accept that we will make no worthwhile contribution once its decided that we can find a way to better other peoples lives, our own lives become valuable in a lot of situations there is uncertainty that can be reduced if we stop and make an inventory and develop at least a rudimentary plan of action its important to remember that things never actually happen the way we plan them but HAVING A PLAN FOR REACHING A SPECIFIC OUTCOME, or at least a mental map of whats likely going to happen helps A LOT i think that having at least one activity that i really enjoy for its own sake and that i can immerse.myself in for a short time on a regular basis (not to hide in but only as a release of tension,its super important not to hide from problems, as i have learned the hard way) community and family - knowing that i am important to others has helped in those times when i did know it (sometimes we dont) sometimes we have to be strong because if we crack then everyone else will crack too sometimes we have to be strong for someone else last, for me, there just a kind of stubborn F.U. attitude that i fall back on where i just kind of demand that i "win" - which basically just means that i survive the situation - live to tell about it just the resolution to survive pretty simple but sometimes thats all we have - Good Luck May the Force be with You
    • Light Saber/Universal Remote (Last post by Whyte Horse)
    • Yeah the kids lost the TV remote. I hate remotes anyway. I need to control a bunch of devices. Decided to make a gesture-based controller from a raspberry pi. So the problem is that the pi is too big to fit in a hilt. It's about 85.60mm x 56mm x 21mm (or roughly 3.37″ x 2.21″ x 0.83″). What would be a neat way to use the pi as a handheld gesture device like the wii or the dr who sonic screwdriver or a light saber or whatever? [image]
    • Rants far and wide (Last post by Jamie Stick)
    • Working two jobs and always being afraid whether I'll be able to pay the bills or afford the bus to my second job is awful.
    • The Grateful Thread (Last post by Goken)
    • I'm grateful for all of you. It's been a rough couple of days and it doesn't look like it'll get any easier for a few more. You guys have really helped. Thank you to all of you. :)
    • Tai chi chuan for begginers (Last post by Sotunus)
    • A relatively good documentary on Tai Chi as a martial discipline, although it suffers the flaws of all such travel dairy type martial arts documentaries: [video] Do not expect too much in the way of technical learning, but it might open one's eyes up to more possibilities, and general principles. As a resource on Tai Chi Chuan; I have found the work of the late Joanna Zorya invaluable; One can also find information on the disciplines of Baguazhang & Xingyiquan, which are excellent arts for developing a strong foundation for advanced Tai Chi combat principles. As an exercise alone, I favour simplifies Yang-style, as it is hard to go wrong with it compared to the more traditional styles and their longer forms. What I would say of video training, or potentially getting things wrong; every step on a path is a potential misstep, but every journey starts with a single step. Better to be making the journey, and learning, even against adversity, than it is to have never tried. Yes, finding a teacher would be best, but kudos for training, and making the effort, and good luck.
    • jedi haiku (Last post by steamboat28)
    • the stage has no hue; light and dark together flow, back and forth, always.
    • Chi? (Last post by steamboat28)
    • Quote: Is reiki, the same basic concept? Reiki (supposedly) means "universal ki." It's a strange concept unrelated to personal chi, as it claims not to involve any individual's chi, but rather some benevolent universal energy instead. Which is bollocks, from my educated opinion. As far as the OP goes, chi is present in nearly every single magickal, mystical, or spiritual practice in some degree. From numina to ruach to chi to ki to prana to animus to the extremely specific concepts of mana and tapu, you can find analogous concepts all over. As to how to use it? Develop it first. Then ask someone who does it. I'm sure there are plenty in this thread.
    • The lost years of Jesus (Last post by steamboat28)
    • Well, ultimately, it doesn't matter what we say. Hinduism, undoubtedly, lays claim to Him in some fashion anyhow, so we may as well just jump on their bandwagon. From "Jesus in Hinduism": Quote: I've an Indian friend who, when he was seven ,moved with his family from India to England, where he was enrolled at a new school. On his first day he was asked to speak to the class about a saint from his Hindu tradition. Enthusiastically he began to tell the story of the saint called Ishu, who was born in a cowshed, was visited by three holy men, performed many amazing miracles, walked on water and spoke a wonderful sermon on a mountain. Of course, he was telling the story of Christ. But he was bewildered to hear that the teacher laid claim to Ishu for herself and her friends and she let him know that this was her Lord and her story, not his. He was very upset about this, because Ishu's tale was his favourite story. ... Christ was different. He was radically different. He preached for three years and got killed for it. He gave everything. A friend betrayed him. We have all had some experience where someone we trust turns on us, but imagine how we would feel if a friend betrayed us to death! Does the word forgiveness spring to mind? Not in my case, but it comes a close second. In Hindu scripture it says that forgiveness is the principal quality of a civilised man, and civilisation is measured in terms of spiritual qualities rather than economic or scientific advancement. It's quite clear to me where Jesus hung his hat on that issue. ... Of course, Jesus didn't get away with this either, but he had the courage of His convictions. He spoke the truth, the absolute truth to a materialistic society and risked life and limb for His mission. I wonder how He might fare today with His uncompromising stand on hypocrites and whited sepulchres? For instance, if he was to visit Belfast he might have problems being heard unless He declared first if he were a Catholic or a Protestant Christian.
    • 2015-2016 Sermon Schedule (Last post by Rosalyn J)
    • Couple of quick changes to the calendar: 1. The sermon scheduled for the 1st has been moved to the third and will now be delivered live and with audio by Rosalyn J 2. The Sermon originally planned for the 3rd has already been published and is located here: 3 Alexandre Orion will deliver a sermon on the 6th of August. All other things remain the same
    • Is avoiding certain food help you achieve better M... (Last post by MrBruno)
    • From what I have learned about Buddhism in Bushijin temple, you have to avoid anything that takes their concentration or change your perception. I will give examples: alcohol changes the perception, drugs also being hungry draws its concentration, overeating will cause discomfort that will take your concentration and so on. Personally when I meditate I make sure that all my physiological needs are well (all), I feed, brush my teeth, go to the bathroom, etc. In doing so I guarantee that nothing will hinder me or inwardly or outwardly.
    • Wary of old habits - confused (Last post by MrBruno)
    • I have also been a compulsive gambler and I have many friends who live video games.Previously he spent days without sleep, without seeing sunlight, without leaving my room. Over time this was going on. Everything in excess is bad, even things that we think are good; when I was a kid my mother taught me one thing; all we can draw a good lesson, so whenever I play video games or see a movie, I try to take something good, something to teach me and make me grow. Try to find a balance to all situations and always try to take a good lesson of all, you will realize that video games are more than just fun. I believe a good solution to eliminate bad habits and adopt other habits that are better and that you have fun at the same time, they make you happy. I changed a little bit of video games with a good book

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